A Plunge into the System – Part 1

November 13, 2013 in Happenings, Thoughts, Uncategorized

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It’s the fall of 1967. The ‘Summer of Love’ has come and gone.  Jimmy, Casey and Danny of the Peppermint Trolley Co. set out to recruit a new guitarist. A carefree act of celebration plops Danny and a buddy into hot water.  Strong bonds of friendship and a sense of humor helps to get the boys through the ordeal. 

Another Fine Mess

The mattress was thin. I could feel the cold cement floor beneath. I’d unrolled it a few minutes before, just prior to the lights going out. Now, in the dark I could hear the low muffled breathing and shuffling of forty other men – men I would be spending the night with behind bars. It was quiet, but it was not the silence of serenity, for everyone’s brain was probably humming like a high tension wire.  No, we were mum because one of the guard’s had yelled  “Lights out! And I don’t want to hear a fucking sound!”

I told myself, Hey, this is just an adventure into the unknown. Disassociate yourself from what’s happening, and you’ll be fine. You might even learn something. I tried looping a comforting melody in my mind.  It was no use.  I kept hearing the metal door being slid shut behind me, and the keys jangling as they turned the lock. I felt like a caged puppy. I longed to be in my girlfriend’s arms, and to feel her hand gently stroking my head.  As I lay there in agitation, my mind flew back over the chain of events of the last thirty hours. It had begun one hundred twenty-five miles north in Los Angeles.

 

In front of Buster. Redlands boys L.A. bound

In front of Buster. Redlands boys L.A. bound

Fade to Black

Jimmy, Casey and I sat watching the little rabbit-eared black and white television. Joe Pyne, a locally syndicated talk show host had brought one of San Francisco’s Diggers on his program as a guest. Angry, narrow minded, and right wing, Pyne was years ahead of his time. As usual, the host was acting the boorish bully, hurling epithets at his guest as the peanut gallery laughed and applauded each familiar insult. “Why don’t you take a bath, dirt head?!” Pyne asked. “Ah go gargle with razor blades!”

“How much would you pay to watch Joe Pyne and Al Capp run a three legged race together?” Jimmy deadpanned.

Capp, the cartoonist, once a liberal, had made a hard right turn, and was now a rabid conservative. He, like Pyne wore a wooden leg.

Casey and I cracked up. It was one of those off color, slightly shocking jokes my brother liked to throw out. One could not help but laugh, but always with a twinge of guilt at being complicit in its inappropriateness. Jimmy’s dark and caustic sense of humor was in sharp contrast to the idealism, and romanticism of his song lyrics.

We were a band. Jimmy played bass and sang lead, I handled keyboards, harmony and second lead, while Casey played drums. My brother and I had been in bands together for four years, and the three of us had been a unit for about eight months. Just recently, we’d added our buddy, Patrick, on guitar. We may have been green, but we possessed what few young groups ever acquired –  We had us a record deal.

We’d moved from sleepy Redlands, California, just a few short weeks before to try our luck in the big city. The Silver Lake rental house we lived in may have been a rat infested dump, but it was our rat infested dump, and we were excited about our new direction. Life, though, always seems to throw you a curve when you least expect it. Pat had come bearing bad news. Our spirits sank with the late afternoon sun, as he informed us that his girlfriend was pregnant, and that he was leaving the band to get married.

After he left, the three of us had sat there in the retreating light, feeling numb. Many minutes passed before one of us flipped on the lights to break the gloomy spell. We began to brainstorm, going through a list of possible replacements. No one available from back home was up to the standard required, and none of the musician’s we’d  met in the Hollywood recording scene seemed to fit. I dreaded the thought of auditioning strangers. Feeling exhausted, and needing diversion, we’d turned on the idiot box.

Without saying a word, Casey suddenly got up and turned off the TV. Joe Pyne’s angry face disappeared into a tiny white dot which soon faded to black.  Knowing he had our attention, he wiggled an index finger vertically and declared “I have the solution. We’ll recruit Greg.”

Greg was our dear friend from Redlands. He and Casey had played together in a Stones cover band in high school. A folkie, he was great at finger picking, and could sing harmony. Yes, I told myself. Greg just might work out. True, he hadn’t played much lead guitar, but, hell, he could pick it up. The problem was –  he’d just started the semester at San Diego State. He was living in the dorms for which his dad had probably had to shell out for.

Jimmy was quick to respond. “Hey, man, Greg’s in school. Why would he want to chuck everything and join us.!”

1968 Party at Benton Way

House warming party for the Silver Lake band house. August, ’67
Jimmy mugging in front. Patrick standing 2nd from right. Greg, 4th from right. Emily in straw hat.

“Hold on!” Casey replied with a calming downward motion of the palms. “I think we have an excellent shot, especially in light of what’s happened in his love life recently. You know Greg.  He’s capable of making sudden sharp turns.”

He was referring to the fact that Emily, the love of Greg’s life, had thrown him over for another guy just the week before. The word was he was heartbroken. After all… Emily, who was a student at UCSD in La Jolla, had been the reason Greg moved to San Diego. Casey was always analyzing, always strategizing, and always several steps ahead.

“Well, I guess it’s worth a try.” Jimmy said.  “Okay, let’s give him a call.”

“Absolutely not!” Casey shot back. “We’ve got to drive down there tomorrow and talk to him in person”

“I agree.” I added. “On the phone he could just say no, or tell us he’ll think about it, which would amount to the same thing.”

“That’s right! We need to do some friendly persuading. We’ve got to sell him on the idea.” Casey said.

Jimmy laughed – “Yea, anyone thinking clearly would have to say no.”

We all agreed on the plan.

 

A Breeze Down the Coast

In the morning I awoke to the delicious aroma of pancakes. I threw on some clothes and ran down the stairs. Stepping into the kitchen, I saw Casey pouring batter, and flipping cakes on the electric griddle.  Jimmy was brewing  a pot of cowboy coffee.

“Eat ‘em while they’re hot and hardy, boys, we’re taking a little drive” Casey declared.

The three of us descended the steep stairs, which were so typical of the Silver Lake neighborhood in which we lived, and jumped into Casey’s silver ’66 Chevy van, which we called ‘Buster’. Giving names to inanimate objects, be it a car or a coffeepot, served as a reminder  that life should be an adventure. Jimmy had called shotgun, so I sat on the engine cover between the two bucket seats. It was always a butt warming experience, but as it was late October, and the air was cool, it would be just fine. At the bottom of the hill we made a left on Sunset Boulevard, skirted around downtown and caught Interstate 5. Within minutes we were slicing southeast through Orange County, ground zero of the country’s conservative movement. We’d started with a full tank of gas, so there would be no need to leave the safety  and anonymity of the freeway, and risk our being hassled by overzealous cops.

“We should have an old ‘Reagan for Governor’ sticker we could put on and take off.” I said.

Suddenly, Jimmy cranked down the window, extended his right arm toward the windshield, and turning his face to the right with raised chin, began yelling… “Heil Reagan!”… “Heil Reagan!”

Casey and I joined in with gusto. “Heil Reagan!”… “Heil Reagan!”

South of Dana Point the highway drew closer to the ocean, hugging the coastline. I looked to the right. Beyond marshy wetlands, the blue Pacific came into view.  A brown pelican was scanning the sea. The sight took my breath away.

“There she is… Ah… Mother Ocean.” I said with a sigh.

“Yes, and Father Sky!” Jimmy joined in with a quasi reverent tone.

“Oh. Brother Mountain, Where art thou?” – Casey chanted.

“Shut up!” I shouted with a laugh.

Jimmy reached into his pocket, pulled out a joint, and lit up. He took a hit, and passed it to me. I partook and passed it on to Casey.

Releasing my breath, I said – “I hope Greg will be open to it.”

Jimmy and Casey both nodded in agreement.

It was unspoken, but I knew all three of us felt a bit manipulative. After all, we were carrying out an ambush, albeit a friendly one. Using the element of surprise and a spirit of camaraderie we intended to get him on our bandwagon.  A cynical observer might  look at the situation and say to Greg “They just want to get you down in the same hole that they’re in.” to quote Bob Dylan. Indeed, Greg would surely lose his student deferment from the draft like the three of us had. But look at the opportunity we were offering. It was chance to make records, to be creative, to live the life of an artist, outside the system. Hey, the four of us were all on the same wavelength!  We knew it, and soon he would, too.

Casey took a drag and turned his head our way. His face was framed by wiry black hair, and sunlight danced in his light blue eyes. “I just hope he doesn’t fall in love with someone else. Have you ever known Greg not to have a girlfriend?”

We pondered for a few moments until Jimmy broke the silence,

“Hey! Don’t Bogart that joint!”

“Whadya mean…‘Don’t Bogart that joint’?” Casey asked.

“Well, what do you mean…’Whadya mean… Don’t Bogart that joint!’?”

“Well, what do you mean…’Whadya mean, Whadya mean…Don’t Bogart that joint!’?”

They carried this out several more times, getting broader with each extended line. It was definitely pot humor, but I couldn’t stop laughing.

Jimmy and Casey

Jimmy and Casey

 

Selling the Idea

 We pulled into the Cal State San Diego campus, around 2:00 p.m , and soon located  his dorm room. We knocked on the door. No answer. A student in the hall said he thought Greg was in class, and would probably be back soon. We walked around, killing time until shortly after 3:00, when we spotted a dark haired figure coming down the walkway. It was Greg!  We hid behind some shrubs, and just before he reached the steps, Casey, donning crazy google-eyed glasses, popped out from behind, and tapped him on the shoulder.

“Pardon me, but could you kindly direct me to the R.O.T.C. headquarters?”

Greg turned. Caught by surprise, he shouted “Casey?!  Casey! What the hell are you doing here?”

I approached from the other side. “Have you heard the good news about the kingdom Christ has in store for you?”  I asked with the creepiest smile I could muster.

His brown eyes got bigger. “Danny!”

Jimmy appeared from behind a tree, showing an open wallet.  “F.B.I.! We’d like to have a few words with you, if we might.”

“Oh my God! Jimmy? You guys. I can’t believe you’re here.”

After he’d calmed down, we began to talk seriously. We gave him our spiel. Patrick had left the band. We needed someone to fill the slot, and he was the perfect fit. We were scheduled to begin recording in about ten days. The record company was excited and totally behind us. We had a great producer. We’d met  a community of creative people – singers, songwriters and musicians. It was an opportunity to make music and be free. The only caveat was that we needed to know right away.

Danny

Danny

“Take all the time you need.” I said. “Take  five minutes!”

Everyone laughed.

His mind in high gear, Greg suggested that we go for a drive, get away from the campus, and let the information sink in.

“I was planning on going over to Emily’s in La Jolla to hang out. Why don’t we go there?”

“Emily’s?” I said. I thought you two were…”

“Split up? Yea, we are,  but we’re still close. She’s the only real friend I have here. Man, you don’t know how lonely it gets in that dorm room.”

I realized I’d been harboring a slight resentment toward Emily. My instinct was to circle the wagons around a buddy. The split, however, seemed to be mutually accepted. If Greg was cool with it, then I’d sure better be.

We all hopped into Buster. Greg, receiving the V.I.P. treatment, rode shotgun. I retained my spot on the engine, while Jimmy lay down in the back.  We were off  to La Jolla.

Emily lived on the UC San Diego campus, sharing a dorm room with Betsy, another high school friend from Redlands.  Some curious co-eds eyeballed the four of us as we walked down the dormitory hall. We crowded into the room, feeling slightly awkward at bringing our male scruffiness into the clean and tidy feminine space. We greeted and hugged the girls.

Emily sat in front of her desk. With her short strawberry blond curls, blue eyes, and porcelain skin, she was as pretty as an old fashioned doll, but she could hold her intellectual ground with anyone. Betsy was kicking back on the bed. Her honey colored hair was cut in bangs that nearly reached her big brown eyes. She had a wicked sense of humor, and those eyes lit up as she joked about a horny professor.

“He’s definitely a ‘hands on’ kind of teacher.” She said, using air quotes. “He really ‘reaches out’ to his students, especially those wearing  skirts.”

We cracked up.

After some chit chat, Emily turned to Greg and asked, “Are you up for going for a swim at Black’s Beach?”

She explained that it was a great beach. The location also happened to be a notorious nude bathing spot. One had to descend a high bluff to access it, so it tended to be more private than most.  It was nearby, and lots of students went there to skinny dip, especially after dark.  It was a thrill just walking down the trail to get to it.

Greg turned to us and said,  “You guys want a little adventure?”

“Sure!” we said. “You only live twice.” Casey added.

 

Black’s Beach

 We followed the girls’ VW Bug the short distance to the sea,  and parked on a bluff.  Standing near the edge, I could see the waves rippling frothy white to the shore, and  hear the water hissing as it retreated  back to the sea.

Emily called out, “The trail ‘s over here. Watch your step!”

By now it was dark. It was a moonless night and the pathway was steep. I imagined that we were Eighteenth Century smugglers trying to evade and outwit the Red Coats. The trail twisted and turned, inevitably winding its way down to the beach.

I saw the figure of a man running into the surf.

 Who was game?

 The girls passed on taking a dip. I think they were put off by the fact that we were not alone. Casey, who, surprisingly, had a strong streak of modesty in him, declined, as well. Jimmy, who was always fighting a cough or cold,  thought it best to take a rain check. That left just two of us.

Greg turned to me, “I’m going in!” he said.

“So am I!” I replied. I was genuinely eager, but I also thought that the act might serve as a symbolic ritual to seal the deal.

In the dark, Greg and I shed our clothes, stashed them behind the railroad ties at the foot of  the bluff, and made a dash for the surf. The water was cold, and my breath quickened at the shock, but to my naked twenty-year-old body it felt all the more invigorating. There was always something restorative about jumping into the Pacific, something that brought clarity of thought, and moments of epiphany. The dark, moonless sky delivered an extra thrill to the game. I dug my toes into the sandy bottom. God, I felt free!

We dived beneath a wave, emerging to a surface that foamed, and shimmered in the starlight. We found ourselves next to the man we’d seen running into the water. He was extending his arms for balance, and keeping his head above the waves. Older, perhaps thirty-five, he was wearing wire rimmed glasses, and a cigarette dangled at the far corner of his mouth.  His few words of greeting told us he was British. His name was Paul. We made small talk as we caught our breaths.

Black's Beach

Black’s Beach

Suddenly, we saw two flashlights making their way along the beach to the right. We gasped. Oh God! It was the cops, and they were approaching our friends. The three of us got low in the water. Perhaps they’d ask a few questions and move on.

The minutes went by. Had they found our clothes? I began to shiver. I hugged myself  to get warm. Greg and I looked at each other. More time passed. Had they seen us? At one point the flashlights turned seaward, making a sweep over the waves. We ducked lower into the water. What the hell was happening? Had they found Jimmy’s stash? Were our friends being arrested? My instinct was to stay put, to wait it out, but my teeth were beginning to chatter. I turned to Greg.  In his eyes I could see the same deep fear that I was feeling. His lips were turning blue. All three of us were freezing. We were trapped, naked in the water with our backs to the sea, and nowhere to run.

Paul suggested that he go speak with them, adult to adult. Perhaps it would smooth the way for us to get out, and possibly get off with just a reprimand. Not knowing what else to do, and thinking that the cops had spotted us, and were just biding their time, Greg and I gave our nod to the idea.  Paul began wading to the shore.

Greg turned to me and whispered, “Danny, whatever happens, I’ve decided I’m coming with you guys. I’m going to join the band.”

The story continues on Part 2

http://www.dannyfaragher.com/a-plunge-into-the-system-part2/

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Wheels

September 27, 2013 in Happenings, Thoughts, Uncategorized

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It’s the summer of 1962. Fifteen-year-old Danny sets off on an excursion accompanied by two other boys and a Driver’s Ed. instructor.  During the course of this brief trip he makes an unexpected human connection, and finds inspiration in a song.  California car culture, baseball, rock and roll, and teen-age tragedy all intertwine in this coming-of-age story.

 

Stealing Second

The July sun was climbing to its zenith, as the ’62 Valiant headed southeast through the low rolling hills toward the desert on old Highway 99. I could feel the heat in my nostrils as I breathed in the new car smell. My madras shirt was already soaked with sweat, and my back was sticking like adhesive tape to the vinyl seat cover. I leaned forward, peeling away from the back seat, and cranked the window open a crack. I felt instant relief as a flood of air rushed down to cool my spine. This was my second summer spent in the relentless inland heat. I was growing accustomed to it. My family had relocated from the California city of Long Beach to the inland town of Redlands, and the cool breezes of the coast were becoming a distant memory.

In front of me sat Mr. Hoppe, the Driver’s Ed. instructor. Thirty-ish and handsome (I thought he looked a bit like the actor, Cornell Wilde), the congenial Mr. H. was considered one of the cooler English teachers. We’d really lucked out. We could have been teamed up with Coach Baird… “Big Bad Baird”, the former Marine sergeant.

“Well done Ted.” Hoppe said, adjusting his sunglasses. “Pull over, and let’s give Billy a shot.”

Ted looked carefully over his right shoulder, flipped the blinker, and, began to maneuver the car to the right lane. He down-shifted the column stick to second gear, but his timing with the clutch was slightly off, and the metal teeth scraped.

“Hey! Grind me off a pound!”  Mr. Hoppe chuckled. We all laughed. This was our group’s little running joke.

1962 Plymouth Valiant, Classic Car in the early sixties

I’d already had my turn behind the wheel, negotiating the vehicle through the sleepy streets of Redlands and out on to the highway. Not a perfect run, but no white knuckle moments, either. Once on the road I’d begun to relax my grip on the wheel and enjoy the sensation of moving through the landscape under a bright open sky.

The three of us were about fifteen, and going in to high school. Learning to drive was definitely a high priority, and the high school Driver’s Ed. classrooms were filled to capacity with girls in summer dresses and boys in white Levis and cotton plaid shirts – all eager to learn. It was a rite of passage. Each of us knew that on our sixteenth birthday we would be taking the test and getting our license. Driving meant freedom and a bigger world in which to play. There was also a strong sexual component. I fantasized about parking with a girl somewhere under the stars…making out…maybe more. At the moment, my girlfriend and I were still on first base, but there was this irrepressible urge to steal second.

We stopped along the shoulder, and the boys swapped places. Billy was shorter, so he needed to adjust the mirror down a little. I could see his face reflected in the rear view. His light green eyes contrasted strikingly with his olive complexion and dark hair, and gave the impression of an inner intensity. Ted and I were casual friends. He was a drummer, and we’d played in the band together. I didn’t know Billy that well. He’d only just moved to town about six months prior. He was a quiet kid, but he seemed completely comfortable behind the wheel. He started up the car with a calm authority and wasted no time getting back on the road, steadily accelerating until the speedometer clocked at 65. He eyeballed the meter and threw a quick glance at the teacher, who kept looking straight ahead.

“Smoothly done. Keep it right there.”

The Valiant’s Slant Six engine purred steadily; the white lines scrolling quickly by.

Hoppe began making conversation as if to avoid any awkward silence.

“Did anyone catch the Dodger game last night?”

This question opened a gate to a small wave of conversation.  I loved baseball, and the night before I’d sat on the porch with my dad, listening to the game. The smell of my father’s cigar and the comforting lilt of Vin Scully’s voice calling the play-by-play always seemed to epitomize a summer evening. Word was… the rival Giants had watered down the first base side of the infield at Candlestick Park in hopes of slowing down Dodger shortstop, Maury Wills. The wily and speedy Wills was on fire. His base stealing ability was bringing energy and excitement to the game. The whole car agreed it was an unsportsmanlike and a dirty prank for the Giants to pull. The words “chicken shit” came to my mind, though I didn’t speak them.  Our Dodgers had won the game, and we were sure they would go on to take the pennant. “Take that San Francisco!”

After this brief spike, the conversation again subsided, trickling back into silence. I knew some boys who could converse with an adult on an almost equal footing.  I was not one of them, and neither were Billy and Ted.. Mr. Hoppe always did his best, though, to keep a pleasant conversation going, asking questions about what was happening in our lives, talking about sports, or whatever else came to mind. He genuinely wanted to make our little outings a fun experience.

We’d gone about fifteen miles, when Mr. H. said “Hey, You guys thirsty? Let’s stop and get cokes. It’s on me. There’s a burger joint right up ahead.” Turning his head toward Billy he said “Hang a right at the next turn off.”

Billy made the turn, but hadn’t braked early enough, and the car swung into the drive with a little too much torque. We were jostled to the left in our seats and the Valiant bounced as it entered the lot.

“Easy does it!”

The rubber tires met the gravel, making a loud satisfying sound, both slippery and crunchy, as we coasted to a parking spot.

We got out and stretched our backs. I was struck by how quiet it was. Looking around, my first thought was “Man, this is nowhere!” The restaurant was a white stucco, backwards ‘L’ – shaped structure.  An arcade, supported by wooden posts, ran its length. The waist high windows were cranked open; their green painted frames peeling in the dry air. In red, above the arcade appeared the name “The Ranch Stop”. The green Seven-Up sign on the door looked vintage 1940’s.

It was surprisingly cooler inside. Several standing fans were humming, constantly moving the air. We ordered our drinks from the service counter, and walked to the right, turning left into the rectangular dining area. I took note of the red and yellow juke box which sat in the angle.  The room was set with picnic style wooden tables and benches. There were a dozen or so people sitting and eating. We found a spot on the window side and settled in, straws in mouth and paper cups in hand. Flies buzzed in the window screen.

 

The Fat Man and the Kid

The conversation flitted about and eventually settled on automobiles: the new line of Fords and Chevys in particular. “I think the Galaxy is an outstanding car for the price.” Mr. H. was saying. Although I was excited by the thought of driving and all that came with it, cars in and of themselves held little intrinsic interest for me, and I began to tune out and focus on the sounds now emanating from the juke box behind me. I recognized the singer immediately – the one and only Fats Domino. My brothers and I had bought his singles back in the Fifties and had literally worn out the grooves. The Fat Man’s voice was full bodied masculinity combined with a playful tenderness … and sweet as honey. The New Orleans piano, and driving rhythm section, made me want to jump up out of my seat and start dancing. “How could anyone sit still and not zero in on the music?” I thought.  The song was “My Girl, Josephine”, one of my favorites. The heroine’s French name alone conjured up a Creole world in my mind and I was transported from the California desert to the Louisiana Bayou.

Fats Domino, 45 Imperial My Girl Josephine“Hello, Josephine, How do you do?

   Do you remember me, Baby, like I remember you…”

 The record ended, but twenty seconds or so later, it started up again. I turned my head to see who was playing the song. In front of the Wurlitzer stood a boy who was probably a year or two older than me. Tall and thin, he was wearing a black bowling shirt with silver trim, blue Levis, white socks and black leather shoes with pointed toes. His dark brown hair was greased into a jellyroll, and a black comb was visible in his right back pocket. Two or three years earlier he would have been considered the height of cool, the picture of teen-age rebel chic. It was a style popularized in the mainstream by James Dean and Elvis Presley. But times had changed …. The surfer look was on the rise. It was as if teen fashion had emerged from the dark alley and into the California sunshine, leaving this kid hopelessly out of style. More than that…. Although adults had long associated the image with juvenile delinquents and switch blade knives, young people were now turned off  by it, as well, but for reasons that had more to do with class snobbery than fear.

Boys like this are not college bound. They fill the auto shop classes, join car clubs, get in to trouble, settle for jobs pumping  gas, and ultimately wake up one morning and, seeing their future as a dead end street, march themselves to the nearest Navy recruitment center,  signing up to “see the world”. The kid is low class… a greaser… a loser.  

 He planted his palms on either side of the juke box, and leaned in, as if to get the sound resonating in his chest. Closing his eyes, he began to sing along…

“You used to live over yonder by the railroad track.

  When it rained you wouldn’t walk.   I used to tote you on my back”

 I was surprised. The kid was good. He knew the whole song, all the words, all the phrasing, his voice was on pitch, and he put a lot of feeling into it.

When the tune ended, he took a pack of Winston’s out of his shirt pocket, tapped out a cigarette, and lit up, pausing in thought as he took a deep drag. Then, with cigarette dangling out of the corner of his mouth, and eyes squinting, he pushed the buttons. I could see the record being pulled out from the stack. I recognized the black labeled Imperial 45. The disc was slapped on the turn table. Needle met groove, and the song started up again. He sang along in full voice, and after the first chorus, began to shuffle his feet from side to side, and snap his fingers, as he backed away from the juke box. He wasn’t performing for anyone. The kid was in his own world. He inhabited the song. I wondered if he had a particular girl in mind, his Josephine; someone he was yearning for…

45 Record Juke Box“I used to walk you home; I used to hold your hand

“You used to use my umbrella every time it rained…”

“You gentlemen ready to hit the road?” Mr. Hoppe’s voice snapped me out of my dreamlike state.

As we filed out the door I could hear the song playing yet another time.

Mr. H. put on his sunglasses and, looking at Billy, said “I know you’ll study hard, and get that dream car you talked so passionately about.”

I‘d been oblivious to their conversation, and I realized that they’d probably not even noticed what had unfolded at the juke box.

I started up the car, turning left at the drive-way; back toward home. Shifting into second, the gears scraped a touch. “Hey, grind me off a pound!” I laughed along with my passengers, but in my mind I was singing along with Fats and the kid.

 

A Sharp Turn

The following May, on my sixteenth birthday, I took the test and gained the much prized California Driver’s License. I now had third dibbs on the family wheels, behind my Dad and my older brother, Johnny. Through the summer of ’63 I felt high on the freedom of zipping around town in the sleek silver toned ’59 El Camino with the cool ‘V’ shaped wings in the back, or even lumbering through traffic in the green ’58 Plymouth station wagon with the gaudy vertical fins. It felt cool to be the one driving when my buddies and I would pull into the Burger Bar parking lot. I still drew inspiration from the memory of the kid at the juke box, and would take breezy drives out through the San Timeteo Canyon, singing at the top of my lungs.

Indeed, there were a few passionate moments spent under the stars, the windows steaming up… and, yes, stealing second base. However, it seems I was destined to graduate with my virginity still intact: at the time I considered it a dubious honor for an eighteen-year-old male, and one I was not eager to brag about.

As for my two Drivers Ed. mates; Ted and I played a couple of gigs together. We were also in some of the same classes, and remained acquainted. I never really got to know Billy very well, although we would talk on occasion. In our junior year, I was surprised to see him playing bass guitar in a surf band at a Friday night stomp. The bass looked huge on him, but he plucked the strings aggressively, if not lyrically, and I found myself yelling “Go, Billy” when he played a two bar cadenza.

The fall after graduation, during Thanksgiving break from college, my brother, Jimmy, dropped the local newspaper in front of me as I sat at the kitchen table. “You’d better take a look.” I unfolded the paper. There on the bottom half appeared Billy’s senior picture. Never a good sign. My heart sank as I read the short article. He’d apparently been speeding in the foothills. He’d taken a curve too fast, too aggressively, and had sailed over the edge, the car rolling down the slope. He’d been killed instantly.

My throat dropped to my stomach. I imagined the horror he must have felt as he lost control of his Corvette (The one his folks had bought him upon his graduating); the panic of feeling the forces pulling him to the right, skidding away from the safety of the highway; too late to take back the reckless choice he’d made.  As the car became airborne, was there a millisecond of acceptance … of resignation to his fate? Was there a realization that the white lines would continue on, but his road was destined to end “right here and right now”?

 

Wheeling OnClassic California Car Culture

I dream at night of being constantly on the road… in a car, on a bike… running, trying desperately to get somewhere, but never arriving. I dream of searching for something, but never finding it. “What?” I wonder. Perhaps I yearn to get back home. But what is “home”? It occurs to me that we are all wheeling down a highway that stretches through our own desert landscape – some of us in donkey carts, some of us in Cadillacs – each of us a small speck under a vast sky. Sometimes we pull off the road and are surprised by our connecting with another, finding inspiration, having an epiphany. Mostly we play it safe, following the white lines as they stream by.

Decades later I think back on that seemingly insignificant little road trip, and realize that it’s a memory that triggers multiple layers of thought and emotion. Like the hub of a spoke wheel, it connects with the whole. As the moment circles back around in my mind, I feel it, see it, hear it all again… The wheel rolls, the car glides down the highway, the record spins on the juke box, and so many issues get stirred: growing up; sexual awakening; the smell of freedom; class distinctions; the transcendent power of music; the inevitability of death. I remember swinging vainly at the curve-balls life threw me. I think of the kid at the juke box, who was singing his heart out in the middle of nowhere, and I wonder what became of him. I ponder Billy’s death. Cut short at eighteen, never to experience a career, a cause, marriage, children… all those things that bring us joy and bring us tears. The road had rolled on, events and cultural touchstones had flipped by: Sgt. Peppers, the Summer of Love, Vietnam, the draft, the assassinations of Martin Luther King and Bobby Kennedy, Watergate, punk rock, disco…

I remember my speeding around canyon curves, and wonder – “How is it that I am still here, and Billy is not?”

I grow old…

In a waking dream I drive through the desert night on old Highway 99, a moon on the horizon, my fingertips on the wheel of the ’62 Valiant.  As I pull off the road, I hear the familiar sound of tires slipping and crunching on gravel. I park, kill the ignition, and sit for a moment. I open the door and start walking. As I approach the warm amber glow of the roadhouse door, I hear the sound of crickets cross fading into a rolling piano groove. It’s Fats! I enter and turn to the right. There, palms on the juke box, head cocked back, the Kid is singing. I stand there for a moment, spellbound… then, closing my eyes, I join him, singing in full voice, throwing out a harmony line as I snap my fingers …

Hello, Josephine. How do you do?

Do you remember me, Baby; like I remember you?

You used to laugh at me, and holler woo, woo, woo.

 

 

Additional Editing by: Kathryn Albrecht
Graphic Design by: Bryan Faragher